what i know for sure

funny, there is not much that i know for sure, but right now, here and now, i am sure that making art, looking at art, talking about art is so much a part of who i am that to function without it would leave an indelible void in my life. and that for a long stretch now there has been a long slipping that i am trying to come out of and that reconnecting with OPST is like air to me.
I have been busy working since last Thursday at Low Brow Lounge. Feeling a shift of newness and a very real sense of relief and gratitude that you are all still out there.  i don't know how to put it more simply. it was so good to see you!
dave said something in his musings that really set me off and i don't know now what it was exactly but something about being 90% done with a painting and what happens then. i have been so hesitant for so long and took what for me was a huge step of just really looking at some pieces that i could say were done but that just were boring for lack of a better way of putting it and i kept looking at them and thinking, well, you know how to paint, what do you think these need and just go ahead and do it.
two slightly overworked, already, pieces, got another swipe, and at least now i can say that they are done, maybe not the best work i have ever done, maybe i don't even like them. i am not sure why that was a leap for me. we all have that moment of going back to a work and maybe just a small adjustment or sometimes a major change but not always the come on, you know what is wrong, just get over yourself and fix it. it doesn't always have to be inspired, sometimes we have to use the tools we have worked so hard to get, and have to use to keep.